LOST

I have been sitting here writing and re-writing the first few sentences to this post for the past 15 minutes. It isn't that I don't have anything to say, it is actually the opposite. I have so much to stay that I can't figure out where to start. Lost fans are a very annoying, very unique breed of television watchers. If you have had the pleasure of jumping on our bandwagon, you to know what I am talking about. Each of you probably has your story of how you got hooked. Mine began with the season three season finale. Yes, I knew it wasn't Penny's boat before I even met Rose and Bernard, but I still watched the first three seasons back to back to back and cried and cried and cried when Charlie died and I knew exactly what that scene meant.

Well, tonight is the last episode before the series finale. Lost has rarely disappointed me with the second to last episode of each season. In fact, I would say that those have been some of the best. I still have so many questions that I need answers to. I feel kind of like a hamster right now. I have been on this spinning wheel for four years now just going round and round and getting more and more excited. So excited at some points that I literally stand in my living room and scream at the tv because I am so mad/sad/frustrated. I will say that today I am of the opinion that Lost is the best show I have ever watched. It is truly number one on my list. But, and this is one of the reasons I love it so much, I still don't really even know what is going on. So, in the end, with only 3.5 hours left, I am still very lost. But, I don't think I would have it any other way. If it was easy, I would have stopped watching long ago.

But, my biggest worry right now is not what is going to happen in the end, because I know it is going to be awesome. It is, and I am dead serious, what the hell am I going to watch next fall? Lost hasn't been on in the fall in forever, I realize this. But, Heroes just got canceled and it is rumored that Flash Forward will be too. I guess my prime time sci fi fix is going to have to come from Fringe, but that is nowhere near as satisfying. This is kind of like when Friends went off the air and I had to go without a "favorite" sitcom until Modern Family came around. That took 5 years. I didn't like waiting that long. This is where the annoying Lost fan in me comes in. I am convinced that nothing will ever be as good. And, I am mildly depressed because I know I am just going to be disappointed from now on. I am just going to have to waste time on pointless shows that will probably get canceled because they aren't smart enough to give Peter Petrelli his powers back. I guess I am going to have to exercise or something. Or, maybe I am just going to have to read more.

Good thing I started a book club.

Live together, die alone,

Sarah